With ds #1, I labored for 16 hours, pushed for 1.5 hours, had an episiotomy, failed forceps attempt and then a c-section under general anesthesia.
I did (and still do at times) feel completely cheated out of his birth. I mean...I wasn't even awake and Dh wasn't allowed due to the emergency of it all.
I will say that time has mostly healed me. I will never get those 1st moments back, but we have made so many other firsts together.
I do admit...that even 5+ years later I do feel a little jealous when a friend has a baby vaginally. I can't help but feel I missed out.
